Angry Readers

It was brought to my attention over the weekend that I haven't been sticking to my own rule. I made a rule shortly after New Year to try and blog twice a week and frankly, I haven't posted in just about eleven days. I am sincerely sorry for that readers, I will try harder.

Not a lot has been going on lately. I've been submerged in my studies and really been working on that solid 3.0 gpa that alludes me. I've also been working a lot at the lovely Chili's. Most days I love my job. Seldom do I hate my job because of the people I work with, mostly it's just disgruntled customers that don't realize that my job isn't actually cooking their food. I tend to take what everyone says to heart and I end up with my feelings hurt. You can't do this in the serving business or you'll go home with tear stained cheeks every day. I'm also working on that.

We're supposed to get the "storm of the century" tonight and I have to say I'm somewhat excited and nervous. I can't stand to be snowed in, but at the same time, it's just so pretty looking. The world is always a little younger when it's covered in a thick blanket of snow. I remember when I was little I bundled up in my snow clothes and took a tape measurer outside. Mom watched me from the window above the sink as I measured how deep the snow was on our porch table. I want to say it was like two feet high that snow but I know she will probably correct me and say it was only six inches but I remember it none the less.

In college snow days are different. Most people dread them because we still have to walk across campus in the feet upon feet of snow instead of our moms letting us sleep in and play outside until our noses turn pink. I don't dread them. I embrace them. I think that snow is a magical thing. I think that million upon billions of little singular flakes come together to halt the movement of whole cities. This to me is fantastic. Snow has always surprised me. It seems like you never see it accumulate. It's like you go to bed with flurries and wake up in a winter wonderland.

I think  I get more excited about snow in college because in Columbia, it actually snows. At home we usually only get ice. Maybe we get a few inches of snow, but it always seems like it's ice that leaves us at home for two weeks at a time and in school over all of our breaks.

In other news I have decided to postpone my half marathon. I was doing some research and read that before even beginning to train for a half marathon you should be able to run for thirty minutes without stopping or feeling like you are being chased by the grim reaper. I can only run for about twenty minutes without feeling that way now so I've decided to make it my goal to get into better shape first. Hopefully I will be able to do some 5 and 10k's with a friend of mine from work who is a bike rider before the summer and do my half marathon toward august and september. I feel like this decision is healthier for me both mentally and physically. There is a half here in October and several in the fall in Joplin, which would make it easier for my family to come. I guess we will just have t wait and see.

Well it's actually time for me to get out of bed now and go to class. Word on the street is that it's sleeting, but I haven't peeked out of the blinds to see for myself. I hope your "storm of the century" is exciting and leaves you at home among your family and friends.

Slide well readers.

Snow

As I lay here in bed dreading my 8am Economics class I can't help but notice there are like 9 inches of snow outside. The only thing I even remotely miss about high school is snow days. The last time the University of Missouri cancelled class was in 2006 and there were 20 inches of snow on the ground. I just can't belive that that is even possible. Though I really don't want to go I know I have to. I think that is what self motivation is all about. Doing something you don't want to because you need to.

Yesterday I was running and I really wanted to quit but I didn't. I kept moving, though I was slower, to the finish line. I think it is a very important skill to know what you have to do and do it, weather you like it or not.

Some things in life are just plain old not fun to do. These things for me include going to the dentist, carrying fajitas at work, and doing laundry. Sure I could just buy new clothes continuously, but lets face it, I don't think I have the closet space haha.

My point today is that sometimes you have to suck it up and do it. Go out and shovel the driveway because you know it will make your mom happy. Keep running and keep going because you are the only person that can make you do it. I know I've said it before, but in the end it's only you. Only you know, and only you can make yourself succeed. In my management class we are reading about how you are your most valuable asset and I think a lot of time we tend to forget that.

Enjoy your snow day readers.

Thoughts

As true to my word this is my second post this week. Week one down. I'm typing a little slower than usual because of an unfortunate moving accident that caused me to slice off part of my finger with my shower razor. OUCH!!! Don't worry just yet, I shall live.

Today I don't have much to say other than my thought process over the last few days. Yesterday was my birthday and I was very surprised at who wished me a happy one and who didn't. This made me think about where my friendships were headed and who I cared about. It's hard to keep caring about someone when they constantly seem like they aren't putting any effort in. There are those days when you are just busy or forget, that is understandable. But it becomes increasingly difficult to believe that you are that busy all of the time.

That's really all of the thoughts I've formed on that. I hope you enjoy the snow readers, I fear it will be around for quite a while.

Rules #6 and #97

Life is a treasure hunt readers. Today I went to the Keen Bean with an old friend of mine. I say old because we once were best friends back in the days when I  couldn't drive and she drove a black caviler and I always imagined as a race car. Heather Belanger (Shade) is one of those people that seems to constantly come into my life at the right times and always have the right things to say.

This break has been a lot different for me than others. I've been spending time with people I want to spend time with and not just those who I assume want to spend time with me. I found out quickly enough what assuming got me. This brings me to the first of my new rules, rule #97-reunite. I've noticed that it is great to meet up with people you thought you once lost and find out that you're able to start right where you left off, just with a gap in the middle. Anis Nin said that people come into your life and leave it but some leave footprints on your heart that will never fade. With rule #6 I encourage you, faithful readers of alwaysuncut, to reunite and stop ignoring those long forgotten footsteps. Don't be afraid to pick up the phone and try again, you never know what you might uncover.

The second of my new rules comes because I feel like I've been abusing your readership. Rule #6-Blog twice a week. I'm doing this to keep myself both sane and on good terms with you. Sometimes it's easier for me to express what I'm feeling here rather than over dinner or some such occasion.

These don't seem like hard rules but I assure you, if you do them, you will feel happier. Sometimes the happiness felt comes after a struggle, but trust me, it's worth it.

Another thing I really felt like I needed to talk about is the relationships between people. The most complex yet simple relationships can seem a little rocky at times. Sometimes it feels good to just get some away time. No matter how hard it may be, remember that absence makes the heart grow fonder. Don't be afraid to take some time off because when you are reunited, you will feel a million times better. Speaking of living your life i've been kind of stuck up on this Kurt Vonnegut quote that goes "how wonderful it is to feel nothing and get total credit for being alive." When I read this, sadly, I immediately think "just live your life AYYYYYY" but I really think that is what we need to do. Just live your life readers. Do what you want to do and be who you want to be. Go out and reinvent yourself if you need to or get back in touch with the people that you want to be with. Don't be afraid.

Everything you do in life is insignificant. Ghandi said that. But it's important that you do it because no one else will. I know we talk about this frequently, or I do and you read, but I really think it's true. You do what you do for yourself, not for other people. Bat your eyes and smile at a boy you hardly know because you want to. Go out and skate in the freezing cold if that's what you want to do. Be happy readers. Do whatever it takes to make your love shine. I know this is a bunch of mushy crap that you probably don't want to hear but this is your life. Right now. Live it. AYYYYYYYY!!!!

In summary,
#6-Blog twice a week
#20-Always be happy
#32-Enjoy the little things
#97-Reunite

Oh yeah, and Happy New Year.