Fish

Before I start with my "life is grand" mumbo jumbo, I must admit to you that today, I almost admitted that my life was hard, but be assured, I did not give in. I had a very long day and started stressing about things I have no control over and getting upset at people who also had no control. I decided to sit down and do what I knew needed to be done. Unfortunately today, like almost every day, that task was geology. Now, five hours later, I am finally done and relaxed. I'm sitting in a study with my feet propped up on a table just typing. Typing about nothing, and I'm one of the happiest girls in the world. 

Today I felt so bad for myself and then I realized that everything in life happens for a reason and if what I want to happen doesn't work out, then maybe there are other plans for me. I have strong faith that God will get me to where I need to go to do what I need to do and be happy. This may not be your view, and I'm completely okay with that, but it certainly is mine.

I believe that there are few things in this life that are worth getting that worked up about. I let myself get ahead of...well, myself and I made it a goal today to stop letting myself do that. I just have to sit down and life today for today, and I suggest you do the same. 

I've mentioned several times that I try to do something every day that scares me. I also think I'm going to add do something I insanely enjoy every day. It doesn't have to be huge, maybe just jumping up and down when I'm in the elevator by myself. Just something.

I feel like I'm repetitive, and I apologize if you are stuck reading my same sappy thoughts everyday but I think it really is the little things in life. Love the little things, and the little things will soon become so important that you can't part from them. You'll search for them in everything you do and when you find them, you will be the happiest person in the world. 

As I sat in my study tonight doing my God forsaken geology notes there were screams being screamed and high heels clopping on the sidewalk down below. I heard all of these sounds and realized that sometimes you have to make unfun choices on Thursday nights so that you can hang out with your friends for a few hours on Saturday. I mean really, how fun can DejaVu be? So don't get me wrong, I do believe that there is sacrifice for being happy, I just choose to sacrifice less-fun things. The unimportant fun things.

Maybe those posters with all of the swimming fish in one direction and a different color fish swimming against them alone wasn't so wrong. 

On any given day when you find yourself feeling like a different color fish, just remember the fish that gave away one scale to each of his friends until he wasn't so different. He single handedly changed the norm. I apologize again for all of the elementary references but that's how I'm thinking today. Maybe in order to be a different colored fish, you just have to share you difference with your friends. The poster company just had it a little wrong, the different color fish wasn't alone. 

So my challenge to you is not only to be a different color fish, but to share your difference with someone, and try to make all of the difference. As I've told you before, my mom always used to tell me that I could do anything I wanted, that I could change the world. I think you can too. So go out and do it, and don't forget, enjoy the little things.