Upsetting Pop Culture References

This is the third time I've attempted to write this blog today, thus furthering my frustration with technology. That isn't' the point. Today i've been thinking a lot about decisions. The decisions i've had to make lately aren't big, but i've been having a lot of anxiety about them anyway.  I found this on stumble today,
http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/2FwbJl/lift-me-today.com/assets/images/death_valley_dunes-500.jpg
and it really has stuck with me. I think that there are these two routes in life. You can sit and watch your life go by and accept the conditions of that, but being a bystander never was my style. I believe that you have to be proactive in your own life. You have to go out and make things happen or you'll never do anything fun. Along with this fun you will probably get hurt a lot, but that's part of being in the game.
My Nanna said to me the other day "Koleen, this is your life, this is it right now. The stuff you are doing doesn't lead up to your life, this is it. Deal with it." Now this may seem kind of blunt, but she never was a hinting woman.
Every decision you make will effect you, there is no arguing that. I feel like knowing this, you can say that when making decisions, most people want it to effect( i don't know when to choose effect or affect) them in a positive way. I'm going to go ahead and say most of the time this doesn't happen. This is a giant mess of me explaining things that you already knew, but the point is this: your decisions don't just effect you.
I make decisions everyday that effect people I love and people I don't even know, but they are still a part of my decision. To me, this isn't fair.  The decisions I make about my life, that is happening here and now, may hurt people I love and I dislike this very much.
This kind of ties back to my "if you love someone don't let them go" idea. If someone loves you, you shouldn't let them go either.  Even though it kills them, you should keep them as close as possible and never let them leave, because they are important.
The relationships in my life are anything but perfect, but I love them. There are a certain configuration of people in my life that work together as a team that I couldn't live without. Granted, I've added a few new members to this team lately, but it takes a while to earn a permanent spot. I absolutely love the new people that have come into my life. They are fun, exciting, and bring a whole new side to my personality. That isn't the issue. The issue is their interaction with my old group. How do you go about mixing them without causing an explosion? These two different elements could mix in two ways, one deadly, and the other fantastic.
In my second cheesy reference I choose to talk bout Bella Swan. Gag me now, I know, but the girl (for once) has a good point. It's hard to put two magnets together when they refuse to go by themselves. I hate myself for thinking that this horrible piece of pop literature is anything but wrong on any subject but it is true. Sometimes you just have to make the two elements, or magnets, suck it up and get along for your sake. Because everyone knows the world revolves around me, right? HA! So if they don't get along, and they resort to explosion, which pieces do you pick up? I'm tired of speaking in code, so I'm gong to get this over with.
So that is my decision, in a painfully drawn out conclusion to todays blog. I will continue to push both of my magnets together and hope that they will work it out. I will not be a bystander in my life. I will be a willful participant. I'm going to try my best to make one giant magnet out of my life and if that doesn't work, I'm willing to risk the explosion.