Tonight I write to you from my usual place, Shoulder deep in my bright pink covers. Although this post is about 7 hours earlier than my normal posts I still feel the same way I usually do. I don't want to leave the comfort of my bed but I fear this time it is for the wrong reason. I'm supposed to go to dinner at one of Shawn's friends houses and I have to admit I am very nervous. I don't get nervous but this has surely done it.
This may not be a big deal for any normal person but it is for me. I have never had to meet new people in this way. Everyone i've dated perviously has had the same friends as me since the fifth grade so this is a little nerve racking for me. Though I am nervous as can be I'm going to get out of bed, put on real pants, and fix my hair. I'm doing this because I need to. Because life is too short to keep yourself in a box and because I haven't done anything today that's scared me. I can assure you, this does that.
Today is the marking of me taking my own advice and not being scared anymore. Nothing can hurt me, unless I let it. Meeting new people shouldn't make me this nervous, or nervous at all. I have confidence in myself and in my surroundings. Plus I have great friends that would fake call and claim emergency..just in case.
So I leave you now with that little blurb of fright.
Do something tonight that scares you.
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