As you might have noticed I've done some renovations on the site. I've done this to make this blog more personal and I'd like to explain the additions to you. First of all the quote is from Blow. A movie made in 2001 that is about George Young, a very notorious cocaine dealer from the seventies. This movies sounds silly but I consider it one of the better films I have seen. I've been watching it a lot lately and I think that is because the characters are so raw. They live such glamourous lives that it's worth going to jail for sixty years. If you haven't seen it, I highly suggest it. Plus it has Johnny Depp in it, if that helps.
I think the quote really gets to me because it just explains the attitude of life. Sometimes it's hard and sometimes it's not. You just have to deal with it and know that at the end of the day it will even itself out.
The first picture has to do with a Kurt Vonnegut book Slaughterhouse Five. It has to be one of my favorite novels as well as the books I have mentioned previously. In my mind this place, where everything is beautiful and nothing hurt, is everywhere and can be found in anyone. This place is constantly in my mind and I try to find it when I feel like i've lost my place in the world. Sometimes people loose their marbles, you just need a friend to help them pick them all up again.
The second picture is a picture of myself and my niece Aubree. It was taken the day she was baptized and that day was really important to me. I am one of her godparents and that is really important in my eyes. She is one of the most important people in my life and I thought she deserved some credit. She is such a smart little girl. Sometimes I forget that she is so little.
Now to the raunchy stuff. Today has gone well. I won't deny that. Today I got to sleep in (kind of) and take a day off from running after I was told by several people that I was going to hurt myself if I didn't take it easy. So that was nice. A lot has been going on my life and it's been kind of hard to organize it all. Steve had his tests yesterday to see if he continues chemo or not and we find out the results on Thursday. Hopefully all is well and all of the cancer is gone. That would be a day when everything was beautiful and nothing hurt.
My friends are great, yes, all three of you. My family is great. I don't know what I would do if I couldn't obnoxiously call my Nanny about three times a day and tell her about the inner workings of my mind. I can't explain my mood, which is usually the case. I guess I"m just here today. I try my hardest to make every day count, and today has as far as face time, class time, and study time, but not in the "i'm doing something important" category. I'm just being.
I tell one of my best friends that it's easy to decide to be in a good mood then just be in a good mood so I am trying my damnedest to do that. I got a ton of new music today including the new Girl Talk cd which I like very much. I don't really have a deep and lesson filled way to end this blog today and I apologize for that. Sometimes you're bust. What can I say?
I get to go home in three days and I get to see Harry Potter in two so I should be insanely happy, and I am. I just have a lot on my mind lately, so don't blame me if my smile slips from time to thime. I have no doubt that being at home will make me feel better or that I need it, sometimes it's just hard for me to leave columbia when I'm not quite ready. My life is here but my family is not. That is the never ending problem isn't it? Having to choose.
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